Time sprints. We went from saying, “Oh wow I can’t believe this tour is happening in 6 weeks” to “Oh wow I can't believe we’ve played 6 shows already. "
Lately I’ve been having deeper realizations of what a fleeting gift time is. To have a young motivated body with the fight still in my footsteps is a miracle all in itself — and one that will eventually fade. In my mind that feels a million years away, but I suppose that just can’t be true.
In our first week we have driven over 3,000 miles. That’s a lot of windshield time. That’s a lot of motion while simultaneously sitting still, confined in one position, and it can be a real drain. I’ve heard several stories of musicians and life on the road and they are all framed with words that relay there’s no way to do it and be healthy. I disagree.
Obviously, the easiest thing to do is swing through the McDonalds drive through and skip the AM exercise, but just like everything else in life, we always have a choice. I’ve spent a lot of time figuring out ways to be healthier and save money simultaneously.
An important commitment I make to myself before hitting the road is to self-care. My besty/bandmate Leora and I decided on our first day of driving to have at least 4 mornings each week where we do a power hour. This can look different for everyone. For me it consists of 20 minutes of writing, 20 minutes of reading and 20 minutes of exercise.
Along with the power hour I have committed to 11 minutes of daily meditation and three 30 minutes sessions a week working through scales on my bass guitar. These are things that feed my spirit and realign me with my purpose.
Caitlyn is an excellent example and I’m learning every night by watching her set. Her voice is a powerful instrument that she seems to have complete control over. Her heart is bigger than her voice, which is saying a lot. We have been doing vocal warm ups together before the shows; a ritual that I am thoroughly enjoying. I’m a bit embarrassed to admit that it’s something I’ve never done or prioritized before and it's cool to begin noticing a difference.
The crowds that Cailtyn attracts are warm, responsive, and predominantly women. All the women I’ve met have been wonderful . Of course, you're always going to come across an asshole or two along the way. A Michael McDonald doppelganger came to the CD table a few nights ago, not to buy any merchandise, but rather to give to me the gift of his unsolicited advice. He wanted to let me know I should stop playing so many instruments and hone in on my sound. “Keep it up little girl, you’re going somewhere.” From my perspective, it takes superior levels of unawareness to approach someone in this way and I’m proud to say that I didn’t tell him I thought he was an idiot.
I’m also proud to report that I’m facing things I could have done better, actively choosing new thoughts and patterns. This has never been easy for me and is empowering to prioritize and put into practice. Why does it matter? Well, if I’m in a state of self-loathing while on stage, what am I giving energetically to an audience? And isn’t it all about what I’m giving?